New Year Bitterness...Time to move on

It was 1 am when I received a phone call from my long time friend Arzel. She was inviting me to go with her to visit the son of our friend Richard, who recently got married. I was about to say yes, but she mentioned Whey's name so I got hysterical and said that I couldn't come because I am busy and I am expecting some guests. Because of the length of time that we known each other, she know me too well and she sensed that there was something wrong with me and Whey. So she took no for an answer and made me promise to go.

Jane's house was our meeting place. Before going to Jane's house, I called Nalnal for some encouragement. I needed some moral support. After all the things that had happened, this is the first time that I will face him. I told Nal that if ever I will still looked bitter in front of my friends, I will be forced to invent an imaginary boyfriend. Then I will be pretending that I am the happiest girl in the world because my love life is blooming!

When I went there, I tried to manipulate the events. I greeted everyone there except for him. And when we were singing videoke, I tried to ignore his presence as if he is not existing. But that is so hard to do, instead I just shove him off when he was trying to crack a joke. I was a total bitch!

Good heavens! I never realized that I could be a real bitch. During that time, I wasn't thinking. The friendship was long gone in my heart, what is left is the angst and the pain. I really don't care if he think that I have changed and that I am the biggest snob he'd ever met. Arzel tried to talked me out asking me to try to understand why he did such thing to me. But I told her that I am tried of being understanding. Ever since the first day I fell in love with him all people asked me to understand him and until now people are asking me to do the same. I really don't care whether he is the most insensitive person and that he didn't realize that he hurt me.

When they were on their way home, he was asking Arnie and Arzel why I was treating him coldy. Hello!!!!! Whey to earth!!!!! He is just an insensitive jerk!

Anyways, now I know that I don't deserve him at all. Its time to really as in really get over him and this time for good!

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Hey! I am moving on!

I met this guy, he was nice, sweet, sensible, good looking and stable ( sounds mister perfect eh?). We share the same passion for music, food, literature, movies and for leisure. I think we are friends and I think that is what he thought. But I also think that I am starting to have a crush on him. Though he is not noticing anything, I am afraid that he will learn about this. Though there are times that he read my blog. I know he wont have the slightest idea that he is the person I am talking about. Whenever he is around, I am in constant smile.


When All People Are Moving On...without me

I always tried to keep my communication with my high school friends because these are the people that I depend on emotionally when we were younger. As years passed by, we seldom see each other because we are living far from each other and that the only reason to be gathered together is a holiday. And even on a holiday, our friendship is not the priority anymore. Some have families of their own and would rather spend the holiday with them and some have their loved ones such as girlfriends and family reunions that keep them more busy to even drop by and say hi.

Its sad that people who are very dear to you are moving on without you. Those people who really know you and seen you in your worsed are happier in their lives without your presence. Maybe, I am such a pain in the A** that people I cherished don't even bother to know whether I am still alive or what.

Maybe it's the way of life. Now I know that the round song 'Make New Friends' is't true.... "Make new friends, keep the old. One is silver and the other is gold..."