Saturday, September 25, 2004
my night in shinning jersey
about a week ago, when i went to the city to visit my niece and to visit some friends I had a weird dream.
I was on my way to the bus station going to Tarlac. I was about to cross the road but my contact lenses caught some dirt. I could not see anything. I cried and desperately ask for help to passersby. Then a voice of a guy came to me and said "I'll help you". He guided me to the other side of the road. When we were finally acrossed, I took off my contact lenses and rubbed them clean just like what you would normally do with eyeglasses ( ofcourse in reality you cannot just do that or you'll have yourself blinded ). I wore the contaact lenses again and saw the guy who helped me cross the street.
He was a tall guy in red jersey. He was skinnedhead and fair skinned. Then he smiled at me and said "watched my game ok?" It was really weird because suddenly I was in front of Araneta Colisium. And a couple of guys wearing the same jersey passed in front of me. Then...... I woke up.
It was eight o'clock in the morning. It was my routine to collect my thoughts before getting up. Then, I remember what I just dreamt. The face of the guy in red jersey was also clear. I tried scanning my mind so that I would know where I met the guy. But unfortunately I could not remember. I knew that the guy couldnt be a product of my imagination, because all the things that are stored in the conscious and the subconscious have contact with reality. But i couldnt remember meeting that guy. I just shrug my shoulders and went on my day.
Last night, I dreamed the same dream again. The same scenario, but this time I was half conscious about the dream. When it came to the point that I was about to wake up when the bunch of guys in red jersey passed in front of me, I struggle for control not to loose the dream. But subconscious is much stronger than the conscious. The dream ended and I woke up. This time its already ten in the morning.
I didnt get out of bed. I was still lying, thinking where I met the guy in red jersey. I know that the red jersey was a product of my liking for the color red, but the guy..... I couldnt even remember where I saw him. My head was kinda aching so I decided to stop thinking about the dream. My psycho knowledge wasnt enough to give me the answers about that dream.
Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars---Henry Van Dyke
I almost lost all the reasons to smile when my world fell apart. But while sitting in the veranda of our house I saw the little stars that gave shine in the night. I remember how my bestfriends loved the stars. During our college, they would always tell me how they would go star gazing before they go to sleep.
I did some star gazing last night. The stars reminded me of how many billion people there are on this planet and how they struggle to outshine each other. Just like the stars, some are bright some are not. I smile at the thought. Once upon a time, my star was the brightest. But I wasnt happy then. There are somethings that I want but I could not have because of the shine I emitted. Everything has a price.....even happiness.
Now I believe that life is indeed fair. I am a shineless star but I am content and glad with what I have. I may not be the happiest person, but atleast smile didnt abandon my face afterall that had happened.
Back on the stars, there is only one constellation that I can name its the Orion. It facinates me how imaginative those people who named the constellation. Hello!!! You can only recognize Orion's belt! After an hour of neck breaking gaze at the stars, my mom finally called me to wash the dishes. (aww...)
Friday, September 24, 2004
these are my college friends, taken after our exam in Political Science. see how haggard we are!
Saturday, September 18, 2004
I have taken the Myer-Briggs personality test. Here is the result:
Extroverted (E) 52.94% Introverted (I) 47.06%
Sensing (S) 50% Intuitive (N)50%
Thinking (T) 53.57% Feeling (F) 46.43%
Judging (J) 60.61% Perceiving (P) 39.39%
Friday, September 17, 2004
Why we were never friends
Last week, Clint, Nal and me went to Edfer's house. He was kinda surprised to see us. I haven't seen him since 3rd year college. He was more sociable and more open to conversation, though he is still uneasy when talking to me. Who wouldn't? For the past four years to our disappointment, we were pair with each other. We never liked each other but we never hated each one either. In my two hour stay in his house, I learned a lot from him. We shared many things in common that could have been reason for us to be friends, but we were never given the chance. The pairing stuff made us avoid each other.
When we were in grade three, we were kinda close. He has a bestfriend named John Joseph. JJ was my crush. One day Edfer and JJ were joking around and as the kids they were, the joke eventually turned into a fight. And because I liked JJ, I was on his side. JJ went to study in Tarlac after that year. JJ was the smartest guy when he was still my classmate, the reason why I liked him. Next to JJ was Edfer. So when JJ was gone, Edfer was the smartest guy in the class. Because of that I had a crush on him when we were in grade four.
My crush to him was shortlived. After about a month, he learned that I liked him (during those times he had a crush on my friend). Then he started playing nasty pranks on me. Eventually my crush for him died a natural death but his pranks lived on.
We transferred to the same school when we were in high school. I wanted to start a clean slate, new friends, new image and stuff like that...but to my dismay somebody learned about our history in elementary and the aweful pairing began.
During our high school, my crush for him was never revived. He liked other girls and I liked other boys. But the pairing continue. He even liked my one of my bestfriend but still the nonsense pairing goes on and on. Till it came to a point that we became a classroom joke!
I became accustomed to it, even when we were on college some friends still tease me about it.
Maybe it will still continue when we are already forty-five! Whenever I recall those times when I was teased and how I would squirmed at the idea, it made me smile. Time... it really flies to fast! We are now grown ups and more mature. Maybe this time we will be given the chance to be friends.