Thursday, June 04, 2009
Being bored makes me reread books and compare people in my life with the characters of what I read. I feel that I am Bella in The Twilight Saga, and my special friend would be Jacob, unfortunately there are many Edwards in my life.
My first Edward hurt me when he got married and yet his actions is telling me that he love me more than his bride-to-be. My Jacob was there to catch me when I needed to collect myself together. He made me forget how it is like being bruised and hurt from your first love.
Then, I met my second and last Edward, he broke my heart in a way that is hard to heal, again my Jacob was there to save me from insanity. I should have not love Edward from the start and have glued to my Jacob instead. But being Bella that I was, I returned to my Edward I endured the pain of becoming who he is, transforming into someone that fits perfectly into his world. But the pain was nothing compared to being with him forever. I have also endangered my life to have my Renesmee in my life.
I am so Bella in so many ways. The only difference was Jacob didn’t stayed by my side. He has to go and find a new life apart from me. My forever best friend and soulmate needs to find a life of his own, with his kind. Knowing that I am safe with Edward he left and said goodbye. From the last time I heard of him, my Jacob is getting married and going somewhere out of the country. I wish I was Bella in more ways than it is. I wish I could always be with my Jacob just like in the novel. I wouldn’t mind him imprinting on my Renesmee just as long as he would stay……
11:13 PM