When life is this good

Its already 11 pm and my thoughts is still working overtime. Here in Marikina with no telephone, no computer, no nearby video shop the only thing you can do is read. As of the moment, Umberto Eco is my new bestfriend. Though the manuscript of The Name of the Rose isn’t originally his, I thank Umberto for keeping me company.

While I re-unfold the novel again, I sipped at my tea latte. A mug of strong tea mixed with cream and sugar topped with bountiful marshmallows that melt in the hot liquid. The cold ambiance of January matched the relaxed atmosphere of the night.

I am no longer pressured with family problems. Things are starting to fall in place. I'm quite contented with the outcome of events.

Finally, the mallows have all melted in my tea. If you will see my tea, it resembles the look of a froth. A cup of creamy tea, a good book and a worry free night what else can you ask for?

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February 9, 1983.... 10 pm ....Pampilo David Dizon and Martina Aparri Dizon had seen for the first time the most beautiful creature their eyes had laid upon a baby girl they named Maria Luisa (bwahahahaha! This is my blog so I am entitled to write anything and please no violent reactions!) And the misunfortunes started.

I am turning 22 yet I still feel like I'mm only 16. At my age I should be making mature decisions but I guess I am not good at that. What I am best at is making myself and other people miserable. I'm such a pain in the ass and a heavy luggage (literally and figuratively) to everyone’s burden.

Though turning 22, I enjoy the things that a 12-year-old kid do. Watching cartoons, listening to music hotties and fantazing that one day Josh Groban would marry me and we will live happily ever after. Hmm. I guess the Josh Groban part was the 16-year-old in me. He... He... He... 12 is too young to think about Josh and when I was 12 Backstreetboys were just starting to make a name so Papa Josh doest exist in my fantasies yet.

After all these years I haven't change so much. I still look as if I am sure of the things I am doing but deep inside I have so many hesitations than you can imagine. I am also still friendly as ever but a loner for real. I am still insecure about so many things that people around me think that I have outgrown those fears.

The 12-year-old Luisa still exist in the to be 22-year-old Lui. Horay to me! My birthday wish? Have a good life and more marshmallows to come!


The funny interview

I attended a job interview with one of the leading job consultants in Manila. The consultant that interviewed me was really nice and very accommodating. Whats funny about the interview is he asked me about my future plans or how do I see my self 5 years from now, I told him that I might be a HR Supervisor or a Manager. Then he asked me if by that time I am seeing myself married. I answered no. He faked a cough and smiled at me. Then he asked what made me say that, even questioned me whether I had a boyfriend before or was I hurt by a past relationship. I told him that as of now marriage is the farthest thing that will happen to me and that I don't see myself getting married. And that getting married is more of getting hurt than being blessed.