maybe its because of the december wind or the starbucks organizer addiction, but somehow i just felt alone again. i would browse my friends blogs every now and then, and i get excited whenever i would see new posts. but yesterday when i visited one of their blogs, i found how insignificant i am to their lives. maybe because we already have different lives that is why i am no longer part of them. i am just reduced to "JUST one of their friends", wherein my case they still play an integral part of who i am and still influences me just like before.

i rarely update my blog because i dont have the time to do so, but as busy as i am now i am stealing a couple of minutes to my teaching hours just to check what they are up to lately. but seems like they are more than ok, meaning they are just too great to even bother to remember. its just so sad that time manages to keep people away from each other, and that distance makes the heart forget, well not on my part atleast. maybe i am lost right now, i dont know. maybe after the cold season this feeling of being left out would just melt like the snow as spring comes.